Life's Good

INDEED..............

AHAHAHA

It's been so long. too much fb and twitter had taken over and i guess i dont know what to write coz there's nothing left to say here. :) Good life..good life

can't get enought of ENT

Can't take it anymore....

Need O2...

I just want to go HOME.... no more ENT....

Around the world in 20 days

JAKARTA- KL - ADELAIDE - PERTH - BALI - JAKARTA


I had the time of my life!!! learnt a lot of things especially on culture and how people lived their life.. I sure did grow from the experiences and hopefully I can travel even more and see other countries in the future....... I'm keeping my fingers crossed

Torrens River

Glenelg

Churches..plenty of them there

Was at the Adelaide 7's...miss the beers!!

Moving on to Bali...sesajen

this was made out of coloured rice/ beras

It is taking me years to upload photos here so..cukup kot ni buat puas sendiri jek..lalalala

The Cat and Mouse Game...which one am i? which one are you?

I dont think people should call it a love triangle.. it should have been called the love pentagon or love octagon or whatever that is more than 3 sides considering how complex it can be.. movies from way back to the 80's have long uplifted this theme and so it is nothing new but what surprises me is that it still have the same effects after all these years..the adrenalin pumping, the sound of the heart beating, and the nerve wrecking feeling that overcomes anything else that is actually funtioning in my body...

So y am i talking about this right now? To make it simple and short ( typical me ouuww)..since joining back to the single world i had recently fall for someone..this time an older person.. not the usual same age drama that i used to face in the previous ones..Honestly its a different chapter on its own..difficult to explain, never had one before, dont know how to handle one...arghhh... Funny that when we promised ourselves not to take it to heart and just play it cool when meeting someone new, i felt that, that is when i'm going to fall down on to the ground and hit it the hardest...

And that is not even the worst part of it... It is when that particular someone is giving the wrong, or mixed or confusing signals that I would end up being "What the hell is that suppose to mean?" and that hurts a lot. The feeling of not knowing is the hardest i must admit..and to add salt to the wound (perghh pribahse omputih).. a few others a going after me... damnn it..

Whyyyyyy is this happening...why must it be that hard..why cant it work just the way we want it? Well i like the quote ' Jangan selalu berharap dunia ini indah untuk dirimu...selfishhh!' from a friend.. goes right into my heart...

Being me..i'll always try to find some reasonable conclusions..no point bringing up something and later on not resolving it..that would be crap..and all the things above would be thrash..I must admit im not ready to go on approaching and im definitely not ready to shut on anyone yet..time will tell and i hope the situation doesnt make me forget the significant others in my life..

So....well...it aint easy being Tom...it ain't easy being Jerry either..

OMG My Blog is sooo LAME

the title says it all...

i'm sooo lazy to update my blog..macam la ada yang rajin baca kan..

but what the heck, when i feel like writing i'll write what i want..

2009 already..and January is almost over..

what have i done so far..??

exams...exams...and more exams coming up..

life is so boring if viewed in that sense..

sangap siot..

Be nice..but not too nice

my 'friends' and i started a footbal club just recently..and after 2 weeks of practice and another week of tournament to face..things seem to fall apart..

where do i start? gee i dont know.. seriously.. i dont know...damn i'm so frustrated right now..

so not in a mood..but then again when was i ever in one??

I'm in the pediatric's dept now. Don't really like it. To put it in a nicer way, don't really like certain lecturers..How can u call them teachers if they don't teach? Benci laaa.... Hate would be an appropriate word to use right now.but I'm full of Love so no hate-hate yaaa... I don't mind long hours classes but i get the knowledge. Unlike now, light classes n only a few days a week but i don't feel i'm getting an education...

aper-aper je lah labu

SANGAP

holiday now for 2 weeks already...my daily activities

1. Pacaran sampai lebam
2. Tgk TV sampai lebam
3. Main internet sampai lebam
4. Main game sampai lebam
5. Makan sampai lebam
6. Tido sampai lebam

sekian, SELAMAT MENYAMBUT HARI KEBANGSAAN DAN MENUNAIKAN IBADAH PUASA

KKR JAKARTA 2008

Datang rame2 yuks......

benci pencuri

face to face ngan pencuri dalam angkot...sian kawan aku hp ilang...damn!

At Dawn

I wake up in the morning to jog...my personal opinion= running in Jakarta gets ur brain smart but ur lungs gets bronchitis..sekian..

System Down....Resume, Restart, Ignore???

Its been ages and ages since i last visited my own page what more to say write in it...

Life has been very very super dooper busy this past few months with my studies and ministries to think of and i barely had the chance to go online..not when unnecessary...

Alas, my house mates decided to install our our internet in every room for those interested and its quite okay for the price we're paying..

I really do not know where to start my story..I'm afraid i do not know where to stop..haha..

I'm very happy..it's almost the end of the year and it means it's almost Christmas and 2007 is coming to an end...approaching 2008 soon..which makes me wonder what have I done in/with my LIFE this whole while...was it meaningful? did i make myself useful to others and especially to GOD my creator??

I have a lot of things going on in my mind right now..Gosh..I hate it...BRAIN DISORDER.

missing the days where i dont have to think what to wear in the morning....

woke up early today...4am++... turned off both my handphones so that the alarm set the night earlier wouldnt bother me and anyone else...

saat teduh beb..continued reading my carsinoma in the esophagus and proceed reading with the current philosophy book im reading now...Sophie's World....

gosh its already 650am...gotta get ready for class...damn...blurrrr...dunno what to wear..blank kejap lagi...korek2 dalam wardrobe..jumpe baju antioni itam coklet...sauk je laaaaa

gilerrr blurrr skang...how i miss the days when i wake up in the morning and tak payah pikir nak pakai aper..sauk je uniform skolah..wakakakak...during those time nak sgt pakai baju bebas..and then now?padannnn mukeeeeee.....

waiting for Dr Nurman in class...lambat betol la pak cik tua ni...if i were to go out and get sumthing to eat, tau2 plak dier masuk ader chan kene halau nieh...

life has been very busy lately.i do not want to make it even more complicated..tgh dalam relationship...harap2 tak makin pening lagi kepala macam zaman muda2 dulu...kuang kuang kuang...

seeing a lot of people who do not know what to do with their lifes...apsal tak buno diri je??

tobat la wei..peace...

Macam Cilake

well...tgh sakit ati nih...tapi dalam tahap terkontrol lah....maybe dalam post kali ni i'll be a little bit harsh..just a little....

FLASH BACK 3 WEEKS AGO....

The results for my Growth n Dev exam were out. I got a C... I decided to see the lecturer(s) involved. The Prof can't do anything, so i met the Dr R, the secretary the next day.
It turned out that the marks were all mixed up..so i just asked for a simple favor, " Please recheck all these". Oh ya i forgot to mention that i was with a few students in that room.......

So the Dr took the papers published earlier n yes she did the recheck. It cam out last week. I got a B. And most of the jumbled n mixed up marks were corrected...

The main story.......After the results were out...I was unaware or buat-buat tak tau about all the dramas happening around me.I'm sure that when there is jubilation, there is also dissappointments. Although my religion does'nt agree with the philosophy of yin and yang...i kinda think that that is what happens in my case...

TODAY

To make the story short, they are some bastards n bitches yang x puas hati with me (that's what i heard though)...Hey..accept the fact that u will always get what u deserve...Kalau dah benda tu bukan markah kau pada awalnya..dari dari sejak semulanya itu mmg bukan markah kau...Susah sangat ke nak terima kenyataan dan kebenaran? Bila time lain, boleh pulak pikir pasal dosa, haram, halal and whatever else u believe in...but when it comes to this...Ko still nak ngaku tu result kau ke? Mana hilang haram, halal n dosa kau? Pelik ya... religion has become something that you can choose...Bila time nak guna agama...guna....Hey wait..apakah agama itu satu hal yang main-main?

Back to my so called 'friends' ni tadi...Nak puas hati ke tak puas hati ke mampus koranglah. Yang aku tau, aku nak result sebenar yang keluar. If you think that what I did is wrong dan sesuatu itu adalah DOSA, silakan jumpa. My handphone is always ON and I will make time kalau betul aku yang SALAH.....

To make things worse...Today i'm fasting....I needed a whole truck of patience in me right now...Dah la tgh pose, pasti sakit ati plak orang buat mcm ni... Taik la weyyy.....Sabar jek la..

I really don't like being around some bunch of mini-micro brain MALAYSIANS yang luar macam cilake, kat dlm pon cam cilake...sangat old-skul dalam pemikiran dan pandangan.In all, call me a friend chooser and i admit that in my previous posts...i keep good friends close and buang yang SAMPAH...Let rubbish decompose and rot all the way....

p/s: ader gak bebudak who thanked me pasal result diorang naik...so far takde budak2 yang thanked me pasal result dier turun n got what he/she deserve. kalo ada aku belanja kat The Buffet, CL karena aku hargai HARGA DIRI KO YANG TINGGI...But in reality, looks like jimat lah duit RP 45k aku...WAHAHAHAHAHA

Happy 2007?

well well..pejam celik,celik pejam dah new year... my resolution this year? talk less..listen more...

dah tua-tua ni selalu je terasa/mengenang masa muda-muda...did i use my time wisely or was i being used?chewahhh, ngeri gile jadi dewasa ni..pikir pon dah aneh2...which is what i'm doing lately...asek pikir je benda2 around me..i mean EVERYTHING...i hate being around a crowded place...i hate the ignorancy of others...i feel lost in confusion n trying to understand..it absorbs most of my energy and strength...sebab tu la aku asek sakit-sakit je. mak pon dah bising sebab aku asek ngadu sakit..all this while aku la antara manusia yang jarang sakit n kalau sakit pon mesti cepat sembuh...

I used to scare people around me. sebab tu kot my previous relationship didn't last long. Pasal takut kat aku jadi PSYCO, selalu sangat takutkan dia..wahahaha...but honestly, mmg susah pon nak cari orang yang betul-betul paham ko sampai ke dalam-dalam akar benih hati.. NOW, i'm pretty scared of myself...Why?

1.Time orang cakap aku kritis ader je benda nak komen (dalam hati)
2.Time tgk iklan ader je aku bising utk jelaskan philosophy di sebalik iklan (dalam hati gak)
3.Time bace buku ader je hal yg aku pikir
4.Time jalan, mkn, minum,tgk orang lain mesti aku BERFIKIR

so basically i do a lotta thinking now. bukan nak berlagak yang aku terrer ke pandai ke aper ke but in a way it helps me to be a wiser and a more mature person. i dont really do that a lot in my younger days and i'm enjoying what i'm doing now. kekadang sakit gak kepala...

so we should be wondering what triggers all these? simple.. tempat saya diajar jadi MANUSIA yang membentuk dan mendidik saya jadi begini...it comes and i think it's wonderful. at first i felt like this is a burden..menyusahkan diri but i enjoy, menikmati banget semuanya now..

to have a worldview different from others really makes it difficult in the first place..but i realised to have a world view filtered by truth and rightousness is not a privilage that everyone could have...that is the problem dgn anak-anak zaman sekarang ni... i prefer to poke my nose in books or do everything else in private. the only socialising time i spend are with my loved ones.. keluarga aku...kawan-kawan strictly dekat..dan ehem ehem dot dot dot

i changed a lot i must admit... so be it that way.. semoga 2007 ni aku buat lebih banyak benda BERARTI dalam idop ni..

SOLI DEO GLORIA

p/s : Christmas 2007 was super duper cool! Minum sikit je dah weng..nampak sgt dah tua

so much to do..so little time

this is my latest entry after 1 month...actually tak bercadang nak tulis ape2..but since dearest melisa yg sms n tanye "apsal x update blog" ternyata there is at least someone yang baca blog i..wahahahahaha....nantila bile saya dah advanced sikit saya akan belajar nak masukkan gambar (i've been saying that since the 18th century...)

life has been very busy but wonderful..errr where shud i start? kira rojak la mana yang ingat saya akan tulis...last weekend i went to Bandung...after 1 year ++ ago...phewww that is really quite a long time and i guess i needed some fresh air and saya dah bosan pergi Bogor...God gave me the courage to pegi again tempat itu and now saya rasa saya dah okey dah...boleh kot sering2 pegi if i bosan...wahahaha...finally managed to get rid of that "aneh" feeling out of me about Bandung....

Persatuan? Hufffff...I just pray that God will continue to provide me with good health...Everyday saya akan bahagi waktu from typing,pegi sekret,kontek manusia lain,pegi tempat lain,sms,call,meeting..bla bla bla....Kekadang mcm letih giler n nak pengsan lagi2 on Fridays because itu my HARI BUSY SEDUNIA...coming back late at night...but PUAS HATI..

Thank God juga all this while i can still juggle my time between studies n etc...tahlah...as long as i feel that i can manage...i know what im doing...there is so much to do...but so little time given..so little time left.........

Update from Miri... my sis has been sending MMS of Vernon...unfortunately...he is not the baby that I met 1 year ago...dah besarrrr la weiiiiiiiii!!!!! Mana aci!!!! aku still nak dier mcm baby lagieyyyyyyy.....Nak beli baju tatau size ape! Ironically, skarang ni tgh blajar Growth n Development... Macam cepat sgt la manusia membesar...pastu hidup SEKEJAP....pastu MATI...... Which always make me think n wonder whether I have been spending my lifetime n will be spending the rest of my life doing something worthwhile? And if I can, who do I think it is for? For me?family?friends?God?....I'll will keep my answer to myself...but since this is my blog n practically no one knows it exist...what the heck! Yeah, skarang semua motivasi hidup harus benar...In short, all I do I will be responsible, doing everything before Him....

My results for Modul Pulmo blom kuar....I'm keeping my fingers crossed..harap bley dapat baik...(Hati berdegup kencang ooooohhhh)

This modul Prof Muzief suruh pakai baju kemeja...I still use t-shirt to go to class...Selagi dier tak halau n selagi aku rasa aku berpakaian sopan...Rilek la brader....

Warghhhhhhh...life is too short.There is so much to be done...Start TODAY

Make money, make love

hurm...nak ngoceh pe plak today....okay my timetable for the past 1 week:

1. I have extra classes n meetings everyday after my ordinary lectures...relax, i cans till breath but once the clock hit 9pm my eyelids will not obey me anymore...

2. I'm privileged to join pak tjipto's hermenetics bible class, consists of 10 students (mostly seniors plus me)...huhu..indah indah...thanx pak tjipto..thank you God!

3. Friday= from PDJ to fires...sampai malam tepar.

4. Saturday radiology and had my guitar lesson after that til 5pm. I was taught by a super-master-of classical guitar...my fingers felt numb in front of him (malu sebenarnye pasal dier hebat sangat main...)

5. Sunday today i went to church (phewwww setelah 2 mgu tak pegi)...siap ade concert for the jakarta sacred music festival...best and i will go and watch nanti tgl 13...

my latest obsession so far is Grey's Anatomy...sampai nak khatam satu season sanggup sacrifice waktu tido...tapi hati-hati beb..next week nak exam mid modul..Next week is going to be very busy..Im attending concerts, classes, meetings, prayer groups and etc...not including my own ordinary classes...i will be getting something from the internal medicine unit (for pulmo) this week..i'll be having my mid modul exam on wednesday....warghhhhhhh...

i need my guitar this week but the 1st string is broken....Yongky bought 1 for me just now so im gona hafta fork out my pocket money for that...warghhhhhhhhhhh...

So in short.... MAKE MONEY.....MAKE LOVE....

p/s: my reflexes are still okay but i think there's somthing wrong with my nerves....

its been a while

warghkkkkkkk...its october today....im really tired for the past one month i dont actually know what happened...time just flew phewwwww passing by and i dont know whether im a better person today than i was a month ago...

i had my cor and cardioV modul and had my final exam last friday...i guess i did okay but i can never expect what im going to get though... Dr Palupi...owh Palupi...

i miss mum's cooking and i really have no idea what to eat this time around...its bulan pose but kedai makan semua lepak je berjual but still in dont know what to eat...kesian kesian...i pity my stomach...

i will be learning a new modul tomorrow..the lung aka PuLMo... and the respiratory tract...I hope i will have the time to BREATH as i had played hard to maintain my heart to BEAT during the last modul...

life's been good..in fact wonderful to me for the past few weeks...i've been very busy with my POUTRI and to keep up with my schedule... a few people kasi hint nak couple-couple tapi saya insan yang malas nak layan hal macam tu skang...kalau mo TTM ya silakan...hehehehe...busett!

Errr..pengakuan jujur dan ikhlas..saya tak pegi gereja dah 2 minggu....last week pasal terbangun lambat and this morning pasal sakit kepala berdenyut macam nak pecah...Elek alasan je tu, kalau nak pegi boleh je....

Malas nak ckp byk...yg pasti hidup aku tgh bahagia giler skang...ENDDDDD

shopping and shopping and more shopping

Its been a few days since i last updated my blog...

lemme see...yesterday kuar ngan naz and got myself a new friend terri aka ming2..great hangin out with them for hald a day..lepak pon kat rumah tumpangan kat area subang yang havoc giler but i pon seb baek tak jadi giler skali

today kuar to my first 'jejak kaki' to midval after 1 year tu pon pasal nak beli digicam and got myself a cool kodak punyer camera...giler batal niat nak beli canon ixus gara2 ada abg kiut yang promote (but the camera wuz better than canon anyway)..pastu jumpa TTM terbaru n lepak kat food junction n berbual....huhu...life's good

so balik ni i repaired my laptop, bought myself a new 3 in 1 printer, and digital camera...yang terbatal niat adalah nak beli jam guess idaman and ipod which i have to wait coz if i buy them all now i confirm akan makan pasir (yes,not indomie) balik jakarta nanti.

i sure gonna miss home lepas balik ni nanti...sayang giler kat my family and since i balik jarang2 ni saya sangat dimanjakan..huhu..best best...

i miss my gooood childhood fren AHMAD FARIZ AZHAR tapi ko plak bebuat bz blasah kan but anyway i still keep my fingers crossed, i hope i can see u or we'll hafta wait aother 1 year baru nak jumpa..sob sob

im ready for a fresh start this semester...semoga saya bersemangat dan buat lebih baik hanya untuk Pencipta...