The Cat and Mouse Game...which one am i? which one are you?

I dont think people should call it a love triangle.. it should have been called the love pentagon or love octagon or whatever that is more than 3 sides considering how complex it can be.. movies from way back to the 80's have long uplifted this theme and so it is nothing new but what surprises me is that it still have the same effects after all these years..the adrenalin pumping, the sound of the heart beating, and the nerve wrecking feeling that overcomes anything else that is actually funtioning in my body...

So y am i talking about this right now? To make it simple and short ( typical me ouuww)..since joining back to the single world i had recently fall for someone..this time an older person.. not the usual same age drama that i used to face in the previous ones..Honestly its a different chapter on its own..difficult to explain, never had one before, dont know how to handle one...arghhh... Funny that when we promised ourselves not to take it to heart and just play it cool when meeting someone new, i felt that, that is when i'm going to fall down on to the ground and hit it the hardest...

And that is not even the worst part of it... It is when that particular someone is giving the wrong, or mixed or confusing signals that I would end up being "What the hell is that suppose to mean?" and that hurts a lot. The feeling of not knowing is the hardest i must admit..and to add salt to the wound (perghh pribahse omputih).. a few others a going after me... damnn it..

Whyyyyyy is this happening...why must it be that hard..why cant it work just the way we want it? Well i like the quote ' Jangan selalu berharap dunia ini indah untuk dirimu...selfishhh!' from a friend.. goes right into my heart...

Being me..i'll always try to find some reasonable conclusions..no point bringing up something and later on not resolving it..that would be crap..and all the things above would be thrash..I must admit im not ready to go on approaching and im definitely not ready to shut on anyone yet..time will tell and i hope the situation doesnt make me forget the significant others in my life..

So....well...it aint easy being Tom...it ain't easy being Jerry either..