Happy 2007?

well well..pejam celik,celik pejam dah new year... my resolution this year? talk less..listen more...

dah tua-tua ni selalu je terasa/mengenang masa muda-muda...did i use my time wisely or was i being used?chewahhh, ngeri gile jadi dewasa ni..pikir pon dah aneh2...which is what i'm doing lately...asek pikir je benda2 around me..i mean EVERYTHING...i hate being around a crowded place...i hate the ignorancy of others...i feel lost in confusion n trying to understand..it absorbs most of my energy and strength...sebab tu la aku asek sakit-sakit je. mak pon dah bising sebab aku asek ngadu sakit..all this while aku la antara manusia yang jarang sakit n kalau sakit pon mesti cepat sembuh...

I used to scare people around me. sebab tu kot my previous relationship didn't last long. Pasal takut kat aku jadi PSYCO, selalu sangat takutkan dia..wahahaha...but honestly, mmg susah pon nak cari orang yang betul-betul paham ko sampai ke dalam-dalam akar benih hati.. NOW, i'm pretty scared of myself...Why?

1.Time orang cakap aku kritis ader je benda nak komen (dalam hati)
2.Time tgk iklan ader je aku bising utk jelaskan philosophy di sebalik iklan (dalam hati gak)
3.Time bace buku ader je hal yg aku pikir
4.Time jalan, mkn, minum,tgk orang lain mesti aku BERFIKIR

so basically i do a lotta thinking now. bukan nak berlagak yang aku terrer ke pandai ke aper ke but in a way it helps me to be a wiser and a more mature person. i dont really do that a lot in my younger days and i'm enjoying what i'm doing now. kekadang sakit gak kepala...

so we should be wondering what triggers all these? simple.. tempat saya diajar jadi MANUSIA yang membentuk dan mendidik saya jadi begini...it comes and i think it's wonderful. at first i felt like this is a burden..menyusahkan diri but i enjoy, menikmati banget semuanya now..

to have a worldview different from others really makes it difficult in the first place..but i realised to have a world view filtered by truth and rightousness is not a privilage that everyone could have...that is the problem dgn anak-anak zaman sekarang ni... i prefer to poke my nose in books or do everything else in private. the only socialising time i spend are with my loved ones.. keluarga aku...kawan-kawan strictly dekat..dan ehem ehem dot dot dot

i changed a lot i must admit... so be it that way.. semoga 2007 ni aku buat lebih banyak benda BERARTI dalam idop ni..

SOLI DEO GLORIA

p/s : Christmas 2007 was super duper cool! Minum sikit je dah weng..nampak sgt dah tua